I can't get to sleep
I think about the implications,
Diving into deep, possibly into the complications
Especailly at night, I worry over the situation
i know it'll be alright
Perhaps it's just my imagination
Day after day reappears
Night after night my heartbeat shows the fear

you might find out the thing you dislike/hate so much,
 is the very same thing you'll misss when its gone


thanks for today.
sorry to make you sick.

Me: "errr, i might have to do some errands later"
Person A: "what errands?"
Person A: "aaron aziz? *chuckles away* sorry,lame."
Me: "*pfft*..errr, okay.."

different situation, same old you..

hmmm, having my elbow fractured and can't do normal stuff for like 2 months, 
it somewhat helps me open up my mind to the world a little bit more... hmmm

saya bodoh!
yes, correct.

So yesterday, went to the hospital on my appointment for my elbow..
so it wasn't dislocated, but a fracture..
it's worse than i thought it would be..hah..
but went i saw the x-ray, the doc say it was healing..
it'll usually recovers around 6-8 weeks..
so it's going to be the 4th week soon..
and im out of my cast though i have a splint..
well, no sports for me i guess for the next month or so..

 it was billed for my favourite team, Arsenal, as its make or break clash against Liverpool..
3 straight games against them..
but it was all wiped away by not the quality of the Liverpool play..
but the magnificent refereeing...

actually, Liverpool was my 2nd favourite team..due to the players in there..
but now i think they're like my most hated team...
from the 2 legs of the Champions League...
i can vouch for every Arsenal fan and those neutrals..
that Arsenal was robbed by the referee...

It was a clear-cut penalty for Arsenal in the 1st leg..
after Hleb had ghosted past 5 defenders and was being pulled down by Kuyt
For the second leg, Babel was looking for a penalty...
he fell down like he's been shot 
after Toure just wanting to get across the other side and had slight contact on him..
utter madness...!!

and from the 2 legs, you can see a different class of how both team plays..
yes, Liverpool did win..but the 1st leg...after scoring their equaliser..
they just park a bus infront of their net and wait to counter Arsenal..
2nd leg, it was a fair game at 2-2...
both teams did play well...
but in the 85th min...
.............no comments..

 can someone just give me an irish whip and let me run into a brick wall..?
or maybe avert on how im feeling now and just give me a good whack onto my dislocated elbow..
i seriously don't know what the fuck i'm doing or even this good ol' brain is thinking..

 this pain is really kiling me..

the past weeks aren't so good..
so i was trying to occupy myself with sports to ease my mind of things..
never did i imagine that i'll exert my body this bad..

i got injured on sunday after friendly soccer..
i bruised my foot; its like a shape of a tennis ball
so i was walking with a limp
and with my friend knowledge on it..
it would take me a week or 2 to recover...

even before that, i got 2 bruises on my shin..
due to floorball training on saturday...
tsk..

and today, went ubin...
i did a whole frontflip with the bike..
after falling down a slope..
great feeling i tell you...
luckily for quick thinking...i was able to use my left hand to cover my face...
the place where i fell had rocks all over the area..
but i guess some of you all would see some blood all over face and head..hmmmm~..
managed to avoid any cuts or injury from neck above...
though i have cuts on my legs ang stuff...
but the one im worried about is that i injured my left arm..
it's a strain or something..
if it's still bad tmr...i might be heading to the polyclinic to have it consult and maybe they refer to me to hospital..
i cant twist or let the arm rise till my head...
i can't straighten my arm at all..
think some of you all might be chuckling to this...heh
what goes around..comes around..
this is just the physical part..not emotional yet i think..

finally some sunshine after endless downpour..
today, sunshine alright!! sun was like shining its rays at maximum effect..
maybe its just me feeling the heat after so many bad things which i did and caused..
while yesterday, during weekly soccer, felt like we're playing in Europe..
no matter what weather...
the surrounding is still the same old same old; gloomy.. 
im not sound as a pound at all..

mendak is the new bored.
will be away on a break soon to get out of the problems that i've caused...
cleaning the house is the new in thing.
this part of my life is what i call "waiting"...

hanging out with team hardy soon..
and someone said that her hair looks cute..
she's been complimenting herself these days like..
"sweet enough to take the happy soda drink.."
"the bag is cute like her"
now talking about the water bottle all..
I'm really not sure..maybe its the stress of sitting in the FYP lab..

aloha~....

today was boring and frustrating day..
adding to it, it was rainy and the mood was gloomy
ending up not going anywhere and cleaning up the kitchen..

here's to better days...

 it's all coming back against me..
just what i predicted...

quoted from another friend...
eyes are the door to the soul...

quoted from a friend...
 sometimes being selfish is not such a bad thing...

blue lagoon..
=)

get you facts straight..please..!!!!
don't assume!!!!

 it takes just a line of words..
a line of words which screwed my presentation..
it's either i stay back for fyp or i will get a low grade..
11 more days to recoup those losses...